Alright, switching to dates rather than days. I had a wine last weekend, and then this weekend I had a beer on Friday and a beer on Saturday and I'm very tempted to have a wine today (the Sunday). Last weekend was a family get together so I had a drink in the spirit of drinking outside the home. Then I broke my foot. I of course had an unusually busy schedule with work this week so couldn't have time off to sit with my foot up or grieve for my aunt. I've been very down but just kept going. When Friday came, to have a drink felt like doing something for me. I can't have a bath now to relax and I didn't really want to update this website. I had too many feelings and no words to describe them. Writing here really helps remind myself why I'm not drinking.
So here I am before I have a drink tonight. I'm feeling less like drinking already.
I'm so sad.
I'm also so uncomfortable. I jumped down from the road on to the beach instead of climbing carefully like I usually do. It was Valentine's Day and I was feeling alive and adventurous, I guess. Well the rest of the day was spent in the emergency room. My foot is sprained and broken at the same time. The break should heal in a month or so, but I think the sprain will take a lot longer. I have a walking cast- a giant, heavy boot- to wear. It helps me walk and I don't need crutches so I think I'm doing pretty well. I see the foot doctor at the hospital on the 20th, so will find out more about the healing process then.