Have I been having a little of everything that is bad for me? Yes. Chips, cookie, candy, chocolate, extra helpings, a sip of wine. It's because I've been bored, not because I want it or because I am hungry. I want to feel like I'm allowing myself things. Why do I want to treat myself so much? Because I'm suffering. My leg is in agony. This walking boot/cast thing is uncomfortable. My foot is at a right angle which is not its natural position so every muscle is crying out for the boot to be off. The first few days I gave myself cast-free time. I know for a sprained ankle you are meant to raise it up and ice it. But for a break you are meant to keep it completely still. Everyone I talk to says the same thing: Keep the cast on! So I've been trying to but it's so hard. Right now I have a marble sized muscle knot on my calf that kind of moves around to remind me it's there. Also the ball of my foot is pressing with intense pressure against the bottom of the cast because it does not want to be in that position. It burns and throbs. Then there is the mental pain of sitting around not able to do anything. I feel awful for my partner having to organise everything and work.
I was feeling so energetic, so new and fresh, with the healthy changes. I don't want it to be all for nothing but I really feel put in my place by the universe.