I had a bit of a setback at work today. We got our hours for April and I only have one 2 hour shift the whole month. All my usual shifts were taken by a woman who was hired at the same time I was. She has more experience in the job and so she has seniority over me. We are moving into the slow season, but it hurt when I saw my shifts given to someone else. How can you help but feel of lesser value? I get no set hours but am just there to take the scraps if someone needs a day off. Lucky me.
I am extremely tempted to have a drink. It's feeling a bit much. I would have a bath but I can't with my foot. It really helps writing this all out. My kids are coming home from their activities soon. It's wholesome for them to come home to a mother holding a tea rather than a beer. Especially on a Tuesday. I like the wholesome version of myself more.