Things are a bit boring and so I haven't been updating. I had a boozy weekend on the Saturday and Sunday of Easter weekend. I declared it to my partner, I had the boozy weekend and refused to feel bad about it, then I went straight back into non-drinking during the weekdays. It really helps that he is not drinking, it always felt so naughty to have mid week drinks together (even when it started to be every day). Having a mid week drink on my own would have to be for a big reason- so far my aunt dying and hurting my foot have been big reasons. When you are addicted, you make every little thing a 'big reason'. Normal stressors should be dealt with in a healthier way- Actually thinking about the problem, maybe coming to a solution, maybe acknowledging that there is no solution and you have to accept the problem as part of your life. Baths and writing have really worked for me as an alternative. I think my mental health is so much better for it.