Sometimes people choose the wrong ways to be in this world. The initial choice was wrong, and then the habit becomes unbreakable. Initial choices can be fun, they can be dangerous, they can impress the right people, they can be just what you seem to need at that moment. My aunt is dying from wrong choices right now. She is way too young when you think about how long you hope to live. It breaks my heart.
I'm not judging her. I obviously have the same problem. I am so thankful my life has been easier than hers. She is so complicated.