Today I felt like I wanted to do something but I didn't know what all day. An itchy feeling. I am extremely happy with my life, it's like we as humans must find something to be unhappy about no matter how cushy our life is. I had a week off work and had to go in today but my shift was only 2 hours and then I have another week off. It's pretty unsatisfying to feel like a substitute, a fill in, rather than it be my job. Why focus on the negative though, when the positive is that we know how to live off one salary so we don't need both really. Also the people I work with are incredible and nice. I love working and just being with them.
My moods are always a bit down during the dark time of the year. I'm having to use the 'going to bed early' strategy tonight. I feel like a drink would take the edge off and help me loosen up into the good feelings I should be having. It's a short term fix, though. Tomorrow I'd start the day off negatively, and I want to give tomorrow a fair chance at being a better day.
I announced to the kids that I'm quitting alcohol for the month and hopefully for good (but still allowed to drink on a special occassion.) So it's official, it felt better when it was a secret. That's probably because I'm assuming I'll fail and have to explain myself.